Monday, June 25, 2012

So Much Family Time

Six months after graduating from college I moved to North Dakota.  12 hours from Illinois.  A drive too long for a weekend trip, a plane ride too expensive to do regularly.  I had effectively, although unintentially, separated myself from my family.  I won't lie, it was nice.  Every weekend was mine.  I found other families to cling onto in the Praire State, grew deeper friendships than I ever had or have since, and when I did see my siblings, my parents, my aunts and uncles I found I was greeted with more warmth than ever before. 

Now two and a half years since leaving North Dakota, my family is a bigger part of my life than ever.  My mom is gone and Amy, trapped with her disability and in a less-than-ideal home, needs interaction.  Me?  I have always had middle child syndrome.  I'm used to being the distant sibling, the one to reach out to friends rather than family.  It's all changing now.  In the last year I've adjust to seeing family atleast every month, more recently to seeing my younger sister atleast biweekly.  My older sister, always my friend, is now my best friend. I miss those North Dakota days of planning around only myself, but yet as I look for my next job, I'm hoping to keep this closeness going, and to try to fight my middle child ways of drifting away.  And so, fingers crossed as I interview tomorrow, for a job that will let me stay somewhat close to the ones I love.

Another Family Gathering: Pool Party at a Hotel for Amy's 25th Bday This Past Weekend


Thursday, June 21, 2012

Easy Peasy Skirt Tutorial


Back from Vegas where my favorite slot machine reminded me of Zoe. I drank way too many pina coladas.  And I learned a skirt I recently refashioned can also double as a top.

I took apart a skirt I bought at thrift store a couple weeks ago, shortened it up, and added a black elastic waistband.  The entire project took an hour at the most.  I can barely sew, so if I can do it, anyone can.  I didn't directly follow any tutorial, as I couldn't find any that seemed like they'd give me the resulting skirt I wanted.  That said, I figured I'd share this easy sewing project, if you can even call it that.

Aside from basic sewing materials (scissors, thread, sewing machine) you'll need some black elastic 2-2 1/2 inches wide and an old skirt or dress.  If it's a longer skirt it doesn't necessarily have to fit you as the width grows as you cut a couple inches off the original waistband.

Step 1: Measure your waist, where you want the skirt to hit when wearing it.  Add two-three inches.  Cut the elastic accordingly and using machine sew together.  I did several lines of stiches to make sure it really holds.
  
Step 2:  Chop up your old skirt!  I didn't do any measurements beforehand, and just laid into it with my scissors.  But a smarter sewer would put the skirt on, figure out how much shorter they want it and cut accordingly.  The skirt I used had pockets that I ended up cutting through, so I had to cut those out too.
Step 3:  You're going to pin the skirt and elastic band together in four places. Turn the skirt inside out before hand, and be aware, as you pin the waistband should be underneath the fabric.  My skirt has a back seam so I matched it up with the seam of the elastic waistband and pinned. (see picture)  Also pin the side seams of the skirt and a front center point of the skirt to the waistband.  You may have to repin several times to get an even amount of fabric.  I found hanging the skirt (above) gave me a better idea of how equally I had dispersed the fabric.

Step 4:  Almost time to sew.  First a little more pinning.  Keeping the pins from before in place, and looking at the front of the skirt, pin two pleats to the right of the center pin and two pleats to the left of it.  They should be symmetrical and with the folds facing inward (see above picture). Flip the skirt over and do the exact same thing on the back. (Again I used no measurements here, just pinned until everything looked even)

Step 5:  With the skirt still inside out, sew it all together, removing the pins as you go.  I'm paranoid of clothing I make falling apart so I did two rows of stitches.  Press afterwards.  And wallah!  An easy peasy, and cute, skirt!

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

She's Back!


Six weeks after a hit and run, my Scion is back.  Six weeks full of countless calls to the shop, where my car sat outside and was hit by hail. Where a three week estimate turned to four.  Then five.  Six.  Ahhh who cares.  I have her back.  She looks better than ever.   And because they 'sensed my frustration' they knocked off 300 dollars.

The damage.

Like new again.  They even cleaned the inside.

Mom's Bed

The bed where mom spent her last hour.
Anything but a death bed. Instead, place of solace, love, and life.
Where decades ago 3 young girls found late-night comfort from tummy aches and nightmares.
And could always squeeze in, fall asleep between the snoring of two tired parents.

The bed where mom read a few pages of a book before a final stretch.
Once a king size table for family pizza parties.
Shades pulled, the five of us huddled in front of the TV as the window air conditioner hummed, keeping us cool on a hot summer day.
It’s where teenage daughters took turns crying with fears of someday losing their mom.
And they were comforted. Told that when it did someday happen, they would be ready.

The bed where mom was found. Resting peacefully.
Where we now sit, sorting out her jewelry.
The turquoise necklace Allison gave her three birthdays ago. The matching earrings we bought when she visited me in North Dakota.
A bed too big for daughters too young to start their own families, buy their own homes, and welcome their own children to their bedside.
A quarter century old cut of mahogany left behind, stained with memories of life.
Anything but a death bed.






*Since my mom's passing last year I've thought a lot about that bed.  It's presence in my life. I'm not a poet.  I haven't written a poem, actually since high school.  But this seemed like the best way to compile my thoughts.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Nudity, Vacuums, and Beer

Maybe it's because I'm unemployed and I spend the week thinking about what I want to do when other people are finally off work although I like to think it's because Spencer and I generate fun when we're together; either way, this weekend, another one spend hopping around from a garage sales to a brew tour.  We made it to Rib Fest, made it out to the burbs to have lunch with my sister and dad, and saw a lot of naked people. 

The nudity started Saturday morning at breakfast.  Eating bagels at our favorite corner shop and lounging on their couches, Spencer said suddenly, "I've gotta go."  He repeated himself several times as his eyes bulged and darted to something five feet away I needed to look at.  I did.  Balls.  Hanging out of an older mans shorts as he sat reclined and cross-legged.  We left, and later by choice, almost as a bookend to the day, opted to see hundreds of man-berries as we watched the city's naked bike ride make its way through Boys Town.  So much skin.  Such a bottlenecked bike ride.  Most of the naked riders were standing next to their bikes, as they were slowed down, and significantly stalled by the huge crowds that had gathered outside to see the spectacle.  Some bicyclists were obviously not thrilled. Here they thought they'd be streaking through the city with speed, but no, instead they're walking slowly through crowds who cheered for the first couple hundred people and are now just staring quietly at them.

Perhaps the most exciting part of the weekend for me: achieving my goal of 'acquiring a new vacuum.'  Ten dollars at a yard sale.  And I swear, it's like new.  They either never used it or totally cleaned it out before selling it, and not only does it work fifty times better than my old vacuum, it has a brush to clean cat hair off furniture!  After buying it, Spencer carried it a block and half to the car as I danced around in excitement.

 


We also did a tour of the Half Acre Brewery on North Lincoln Ave.  If you're not from the area, the company is newer, small, only distributes around Chicago and a few suburbs, and, in my opinion, puts way too much hops in their beer. 

They give one tour a week, to 60 people; first come, first serve.  So we waited outside in the hot sun about an hour to get a spot, but were rewarded with three beers, a pint class, and an honest, laid back tour for the same cheap price as my vacuum.  Ten dollars.

Oh I love beer.  After my trip to Vegas next weekend, however, I'm taking a break from alcohol.  I'm at my heaviest weight ever (by a few pounds, but still) and need to start taking care of myself again.  And so, hopefully, once High Life's are out of my life, the same will go for a few pounds.

Tuesday, June 05, 2012

Amy the House Hunter

Amy has been wanting to move out of the house she lives in for years.  Monday she toured a potential new home.  It may not be the perfect fit, but it was exciting to dream.

Some fun I had with iMovie regarding the day...

A HOME FOR AMY TRAILER

CLIPS FROM THE DAY

Monday, June 04, 2012

Cat Apps

So many great 'apps' out there, but let's forget about the ones that translate languages for you, let you scan documents from your phone, or help you find the nearest BYOB place for a minute to talk about what really matters.  Cats.  And the multiple of applications that allow me to indulge my love for them even when I'm not at home with my furry pets. Alot of the apps generate various meows...
 
But my new favorite app.  Cat Wang.  Simply because I can now make everyone I like, someone I love by adding a cat head on them.


If pasting a cat head on a picture is too impersonal, you can always paste a cat faceCat Face is a must have app on your phone if you have free time, and cats.  It doesn't always line up purrfectly, as seen here with the younger sis.  But still fun.

The Cat Face creators appropriately also have Dog Face, and well, I highly recommend it too.




Sunday, June 03, 2012

Reunited

I had a fallout with a  close friend four months ago.
Correction.  I thought I had a fallout with a friend.  In our last email correspondence he apologized for being a bad friend and taking so long to reach out to me after a breakup. I told him 'Hey, no biggie, although you do sometimes suck as a friend.'
And we hadn't talked since.  Until last night.  The one friend I regularly saw, talk to about my family, my mom, and my dating life, and really felt close to, just disappeared.

I was sure he'd ridden me off, that he'd decided if he's such a 'bad friend' maybe we shouldn't be friends at all.  And apparently, he was sure I had ridden him off. Decided he was a bad friend not worth my time.  See, I lost my job shortly after that email, and he'd been texting my work phone.  He says he text me several times and gave up after he didn't hear back from me.
And so last night when we saw each other at a party, hugged, and sorted it out, I started crying.  In fairness, the alcohol may have added to it too. 

As I cried, and we both laughed, about the misunderstanding, Spencer pointed out how funny it was that neither of us just picked up the phone and called one another.  He's right.

I lost one of my best friends for four months because of a miscommunication.  Funny how that works.  Sad, really.  But we're reunited now, and (cringe, cliche) it feels so good.

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Goodbye Pink Rug

I've had the rug 8 years.  Bought it at IKEA with my mom to put in my dorm room at the University Center.  A new rug for a new year, a new dorm building (the first year the building opened) and a new job (I was a resident advisor).  It's just an object, but one with lots of memories.  There were singalongs with Millie and Dianne in the dorm room, they'd sit on the rug as I played guitar from my bed.  I remember lint rolling the entire surface whenever it needed cleaning throughout college because I didn't have a vacuum.  All those years and I never took a proper photo of the multi-pink-colored thing.  Probably because, as I said, it's just an object. 

An object, Zoe, my little piss monster, managed to ruin in the 10 months I've given her access to it.  Numerous 'mistakes' have destroyed the rug.  Cleaning it?  It's beyond that.  And so today, I didn't feel the least bit sentimental as I pulled it out from beneath the furniture, balled it up, and rushed out to the dumpster, carrying it away from my body so as to avoid any contact. 

 I actually think my office area looks better now.  Just hoping some poor dumpster diver doesn't dig it out thinking they've found a gem. 

There will be another rug in that dumpster soon enough.  Tonight, right before sitting down at the computer, I walked across the only rug left in my home (I don't even keep bathmats anymore) and felt a damp spot.  The piss monster strikes again.

Memorable Memorial Day Weekend

My three day weekend, if an unemployed person indeed has weekends, was made up of drinking, families, and installing air conditioners. Well, actually just one air conditioner, but it was such a pain in the ass it counts for several.

Spencer loaded the eight-ton machine into my bedroom window last night. As he lugged it around, apparently the main control knob snapped off. And not in the we'll-just-use-a-screw-driver way. There was a bottomless hole where a previously broken knob had already been.

And so the troubleshooting. We poke and probbed. Undid screws. Searched the floor for the missing piece (which I'm certain I must have swept up shortly after it was dropped). Sat in front of the air conditioner, drinking High Lifes, wondering what the heck to do next. The solution: to glue a screw several inches back in the a/c where the knob originated...and to spend the night in Spencer's air conditioned apartment.


Turns out craft glue, a screw, and a night of drying worked.  This morning I turned the screw with some plyers, affectively turning on the a/c shortly before the glue gave out and the screw snapped out.  It will, of course, now be stuck on the same setting and turned on and off through plugging and unplugging it.  But I have my air conditioner back!

Spencer worked his butt off to make it happen, and the same night installed a new computer keyboard for me, which he ordered online himself.  And so, an adorable photo of him, hard at work, as Emma looks on lovingly.


Keeping up with Memorial Day fashion, I wore a dress for the first time of the season.  Wore a dress on two different occasions actually.  So many people were surprised to see me show leg, and complimented me, that I went out and bought a couple more summer skirts/dresses.  I was also inspired by the last minute plane ticket I bought to Vegas.  Going in two weeks and would like to leave the jeans at home.




Other revelations this weekend: 
  • Shuffle board is a blast.  Yes, I said blast.  Played some version of it at Nick's Beer Garden in Wicker Park.  Way easier than pool to pick up, and so, it gets a thumbs up.
  • Spencer was a hot 18-year-old.  When we visited his parents on Memorial Day I mentioned I hadn't seen any photos of him from his past.  His dad then dug up the ten-year-old photo files on the computer, initiating a walk down memory lane for Spencer and his parents.  We sat and looked at photos together for a while.
  • I can get through a night at a 'douchie' bar as long as there are music videos on the TVs.  Went to Mad River in Lincoln Park, a crowded, pop-collared kinda place, to celebrate the birthday of someone I don't know.  But had fun, thanks to the loud music, all of which accompanied a video that was airing on atleast 30 TVs throughout the bar.  I basically felt like I was hanging out with Rihanna, Drake, and Nicki Minaj.
Alright that's all.  Closing on a sequence of 'waking-up-zoe' photos...

Monday, May 21, 2012

Amy on the Metra



In order for sister Amy to have independence she needs to be able to get around without fully relying on family and caretaker rides.  And so over the weekend: the Metra experiment.  Amy and I hopped on board and treked to a neighboring suburb.  Turns out her bulky chair does fit on the train.  BUT actually getting it on the lift to load into the train in a timely matter, not the easiest task for her. We sufficiently delayed both trains we rode on.  It doesn't mean the Metra is off limits though, just that she needs a little help getting loaded and unloaded.  Either way, check out her smile.  Success!




In other transportation news: my Scion, wrecked by a hit and run driver nearly a month ago, will be in the shop another two weeks.  Seriously?!  And Spencer, who's car was stolen a month and a half ago, finally found a new way to get around.  He bought this 70's Schwin in Champaign at a used bike-sale.  His purchase will hopefully encourage me to take my bike out for a spin now. 

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Buttons and Business Card Holders

I learned a life skill today: how to sew on a button.  This as my cats, brother and sister, sat beside me, loving each other.  I blame them for my constant urge to nap.  It's impossible to get anything done when two furry creatures are stretching beside you, inviting you to lay down, just for a second, and cuddle.                           
But a button ain't nothing.  Look at what else I managed to make!  Okay, I just made some credit/business card holders and a cloth pouch, but as a dropout of I-dont-want-to-tell-you-how-much-I-spent sewing classes, being able to create with a sewing machine is an accomplishment. The project in the first photo is actually made out of an old child's apron I found at a yard sale last weekend.




Also made my way out to Elgin to see my mom's best friend, Amy.  She kept more of my mom's belongings than I did.  Her in-the-works daycare is loaded with mugs, towels, tables, even a washer, all from Winmoor Drive.  One of her employees apparently even took my mother's bedroom set.  Seeing memorabilia from my childhood scattered around was odd, but not unsettling.  I love knowing people, other than my sisters, close family, and I can't help but have my mom on their mind as her stuff is everywhere.

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Coasters For All

Spencer and I ran together today for the first time.  Go us.  We were rewarded by several yard sales along the way.  He found a long-coveted crock pot for three dollars.  And I got these for a dollar...tin cat coasters.  There has to be at least 50 of them.  I don't even do the coaster thing, but I will now begin. 

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Starting Small

This whole 'goal' thing has gotten me up off the couch and I like it.  I like it a lot.  So often I just associate goals with my career, and well, here I am, unemployed.  So giving myself some other goals between applying for jobs and waiting to hear back has made my Wednesday pretty awesome.

I completed a sewing project, if you can even call it that, making pillows out of some old sailboat napkins of my late grandparents.  (notice the cat lurking in the background) 

And I tried out a new recipe.  Carrot coconut soup.  It gave me an excuse to use my mom's crockpot finally.  Spencer loved it (the soup, that is).  As did I, although it didn't beat my sisters.

Oh, and for the record: I don't cook. I also don't sew, at least that well.  It's why these small accomplishments are so major to me, and also why so many of my '101 goals' are focused on cooking and crafts.  The kitchen is where I'll need the most help.  I just don't know a lot of the basics.  Like with this soup, it called for minced ginger.  Turns out I don't know what ginger root looks like, that you peel it, and that, when you do, the soft pink substance they serve at sushi restuarants doesn't appear.  A grocery story employee and my curiousity at home led to me figuring it out, but this cooking quest will be interesting.  Mom would be proud, and a big help on this journey.

Tuesday, May 08, 2012

Back to Writing

I've been wanting to blog for a while.  Not about anything in particular, but in the hopes of reigniting my love for writing.  In high school, I couldn't go to sleep at the end of the day without turning to the computer and jotting down my thoughts.  It was a release for me.  And while, this blog is public, and I by no means plan to write daily, I think it's what I need.  A release.  A place to organize my thoughts, my goals, to post adorable photos of my pets, and to bitch everyone now and then too.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Tomorrow morning, by 10:00 am, I will be off the ship for good and Semester at Sea will be officially over. I’m in denial, I just can’t believe I spent the last semester traveling around the world. When I applied to the program in February it was just on a whim. It sounded like an awesome experience but never did I think that everything would fall into place so well, that I would actually be going. Then I got accepted (pretty much everyone does), but I refused to get excited, or even talk about it, until I found a way to pay for the voyage. Then I had amazing financial assistance and the next thing I knew I was getting immunizations, applying for visas, and registering for classes. Even a week before I left for the Bahamas, I was so sure something would keep me from this opportunity. But it all worked out. I still can not believe it, man, I could say that over and over. Thanks to everyone back home, this entire voyage was made possible. I can’t thank mom, dad, and Deb enough, really.

I’m over sentimental right now. For the last two days I’ve been near tears more times that I can count. Everyone is gathering email addresses and cell phone numbers, carrying world maps around and having them signed. And each time a friend of mine signs my map and says “See you later,” I can’t help but think that I might not. Many of my conversations with people may be the last. Kimmy, one of my friends from day one, had a heart to heart with me last night, bringing back memories of the Bahamas and how I cheered her up when she was missing home. I felt tears welling up in my eyes as she repeatedly encouraged me to keep in touch.
The girls, Carrie, Kathryn, Anna, Erin, and Janelle, and I have had more time to spend together since classes are finished and there is little to do on the ship. I’ve been trying to soak up every moment we spend together. Two nights ago we picked out a table in the empty dining room on deck 5 and made gingerbread houses out of graham crackers, m and m’s, and other goodies we bought in Hawaii. Afterwards we sat at a table outside, freezing for the cold windy night air and laughing as we listed the things we will miss about Semester at Sea. A dance was going on a deck above us and the song, “Time of Your Life,” by Green Day played in the background. It was one of the many moments of the voyage that I will remember. And then last night we slept outside under the stars. It was cold but the plan was to be miserable together. After two hours we each picked up our sleeping bags and dragged them back to our room.
I’m so excited to get home and see everyone. Really. But the life I’ve had on SAS has been so ideal that nothing can match it. I haven’t thought past December 7 this entire semester and it’s been the best feeling in the world. All too often, back home I plan everything ahead of time and I’m constantly looking to the future, but for 100 days I didn’t. Instead, I lived in the moment. I had some papers to write, tests to study for, and blogs to post, but besides that life was carefree. I wasn’t stressing about anything. Man, I’m going to miss it.
What else will I miss? Well I’m glad you asked! I’ll miss going to sleep and waking up to see a foreign country outside of my porthole. I’ll miss going to global studies each morning at 9:20, just to come back to a made bed and fresh towels in the bathroom. I’ll miss losing an hour of sleep constantly, talking at meals about what we plan to do in the next port, getting up at 7:00 am to use the internet when it’s fast, laying in the sun and attempting to read global studies homework as the wind whips the pages around, the lack of cell phones, hand sanitizer before every meal, getting excited about emails. I’m going to miss knowing that I’ll always feel a breeze if I step outside. And of course, I’ll miss the sunsets. I could go on forever, but I won’t.
Tonight is the convocation ceremony and Janelle is graduating. From there we all plan to exchange music and pictures and enjoy our last night together. I know I’ll be an emotional wreck tomorrow as I hug my friends goodbye, swipe my key card one last time and walk off the ship, attempting to weave through the crowds of people waiting outside with signs. It’s off to the airport from there for an early flight to Chicago. I’ll be home tomorrow night.
Semester at Sea was amazing and I realize I’ve been cheesy and sentimental in this blog. But that’s the way I am. Thanks once again to everyone who helped make the voyage possible and kept in touch with me as I traveled around the world. I can’t wait to see you all.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Hawaii and Home!

I’m on my way towards San Diego as we speak…

Wednesday night we got into Hawaii at about 5:00 pm. Originally we had planned to reach Honolulu on Thursday morning, so even though we had to wait till 7:30 pm to get off the ship, no one was complaining. And so, after three months of being away from the U.S., I stepped onto American soil once again. The group of us headed into the city on a dinner mission and after roaming away from the main port area, so as to avoid SASers, we found a nice Irish pub. There were burgers on the menu and the waiter actually understood what we were saying, it was all very exciting. For dessert, the girls and I walked to a drug store down the street, bought Ben and Jerry’s, and sat on a bench in a city park, enjoying the warmth of the night.
Being back in America was definitely exciting for me, but there were downfalls as well. For the entirety of our stay in Hawaii, everyone was on their cell phones. Finally able to get service, as we entered Hawaii people gathered on the back deck, cell phones in hand, calling anyone and everyone. It was really very sad. I haven’t held a cell phone for the last semester. I haven’t had my conversation cut off by the ringing of one, or sat at a table with a friend as they talked to someone on the other line, it’s one of the many things on Semester at Sea that I’ve taken for granted. But while in Hawaii, they were everywhere. As we lay on the beach people’s conversations overlapped as they chatted away and I had to make a “no phones at dinner” rule for the first night. Carrie offered her phone to me since I left mine at home, but I didn’t want to call anyone. It’s not that I don’t want to talk to anyone…there are so many people I am dieing to have a conversation with, but not yet. Leaving the ship is going to be really sad, and right now I still have that excitement of not having talked to my parents’ or the girls since Cape Town and not having talked to anyone else since August. So getting home is going to be all the more exciting and that, ladies and gentlemen, is why I chose not to call any of you from Hawaii.
The other downfall of being back in the United States is that I can no longer drink legally. I barely drank at all during this voyage, but being able to have a beer or wine with dinner was awesome. Now I have to go back to asking others to buy me my alcohol…bummer. So anyway, not being able to enter any bars, after our Ben and Jerry’s we walked around, listening to the live music from an outdoor bar, before going back on the ship for the night. Anna, Kathryn, Janelle, and I ended up meeting on the front deck and playing cards so we could enjoy the night air and continue listening to the muffled music in the distance.


The next day Erin and I were up, had eaten breakfast, and were off the ship by 7:45 am. It took us a good hour to figure out the public transportation system as locals steered us in different directions towards a variety of possible buses we could take. Eventually we were on a bus and headed to Diamondhead Crater. The hike up the side of the crater was touristy and pretty easy, with people of all ages taking the 40-minute hike to the top. A man-made path, complete with handrails and lots of stairs, led us to the lookout point. Erin and I were sweaty beasts by the time we got there and had to resort to pulling our beach towels out of our bookbags to mop ourselves off. From the look-out point the shape of the crater was much more obvious. Standing inside the crater from ground level, it just looks like low mountains are surrounding you, but from above the circular shape was much more obvious. The bright-blue Pacific Ocean lie next to the crater with the city and mountains taking up the other side. It was a pretty amazing view.
We had planned to visit Pearl Harbor, but it’s located quite a ways away from Diamondhead and the Waikiki area. So it was between the crater or the memorial and nature won out. The next two hours were spent waiting for a bus into Waikiki and trying to track down Carrie, Kathryn, and Cynthia. We spent the afternoon laying on the beach and swimming in the ocean. It was so wonderful. Classes are over and to able to relax in a port for once and not feel the pressure of running to see everything was really nice. I had hoped to get a tan from laying out but was paranoid that I was going to burn and reapplied sunscreen so much that you can barely tell I was outside all day.
Janelle and Anna were on the other side of Waikiki and I wanted to do dinner with them. So I took a bus on my own to find them. Earlier in the day they had spent gads of money at this jewelry store on pearls that they had seen “born” out of the oysters they were formed in. We were still in the area of the shop. We went back and someone they got the woman to give them a free oyster, they had gotten several free ones earlier because they had spent so much money. So the girls, wanting me to experience the excitement of tapping on the shell and yelling “Aloha!” loudly before the woman cracked it open for me, came and got me out of a nearby store I had roamed into and let me have the free pearl they had earned. It was really sweet of them.
For dinner the three of us ate at Benihana’s. Apparently they’re all over the U.S. and there’s even one in Oakbrook, but I’ve never heard of the chain before. We sat at a table and watched as a chef made fresh fried rice and grilled our steaks and seafood dishes right in front of us, flipping utensils in the air and doing a plethora of tricks. I was in awe of it all.
We took the bus back to the ship area after dinner. I had an amazing coffee drink: Coconut Kona Mocha, from a coffee shop in the nearby mall. It was so amazing that I feel the need to mention it. Back on the ship I considered working on finals but ended up loading pictures onto my computer and getting absolutely nothing done.


Oh and speaking of finals, I only have to take one! McWilliams, my Modern Japan teacher, is really unorganized and hasn’t even made the final yet. At the review session yesterday he randomly decided that the final was optional. I wasn’t a huge fan of the class, but I’m really going to miss McWilliams. During our last class with him he told us that our Japan class witnessed his “worst teaching in his entire career,” and he wasn’t joking. We all laughed because we knew it was true.
The only final I have to deal is with Brice, my Geohazards professor. He didn’t mention the final until the last class period and told us that it would be cumulative with no study guide or review session. So yay, an upper-level science exam that I am completely unprepared for. I figure I can fail it and still pass the class, that’s what I’m shooting for right now.

Two days of finals, two days of packing, and I’m home.

Monday, November 28, 2005

Within four days we’ve lost four hours. During the day I’m miserably tired and at night I can’t sleep. It’s awful. Other than that though, things are going great.

I’m turning in my semester-long journal on my Japan readings and my consumer-oriented piece for Traveler’s Journals today. Yesterday I finished my global studies readings and a couple days ago I turned in my sixth and final paper on geohazards. Three exams to go and I’ll be home free. The sweet thing about exams on the ship is that the teachers only have one to two days to grade the tests and report the grades back to us, so I’m hoping that, in turn, we have shorter, less complicated exams in order to make grading easier.

Last night was the Ambassador’s Ball. The girls wore dresses, the boys wore suits (many of which were made in Vietnam), and after eating a fancy five-course meal with pre-arranged seating and Champaign, we danced the night away. One of the teachers on the ship also danced the night away, only while grinding on the students while wearing jeans and her bikini top...pretty sure she was drunk. Needless to say, it was extremely entertaining. Then at 10:00 they put out this amazing dessert bar with a million kinds of cakes and seriously, just so much it was ridiculous. Oh yeah, and before the dinner we watched a preview of the voyages DVD and a 45-minute slideshow of pictures. As many joked, “It was only the most important night of our lives.”

Today is the 29th for us. So is tomorrow. It’s all very confusing to hear people refer to a date by “the first 29th.”

We’ll get to Hawaii Thursday night and have all day Friday to do as we please. Still debating Pearl Harbor or not.

Less than ten days on the ship. One girl in the voyage DVD preview said that, “I’m ready to go home and see my friends and family, but after a week I’ll want to come right back here.” That’s how I’m feeling right now too.

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Japan!!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! By the time I post this everyone back in Illinois will be enjoying turkey and all the goods. I, however, had my Thanksgiving dinner basically a day before everyone else. But all the same I did have a Thanksgiving dinner. The ship served us turkey, stuffing, potatoes, green beans, cranberries, and pumpkin bars but because everyone was eating mass amounts of food, the food ran out over and over and over. The cooking staff couldn’t keep up! I waited in line with the girls, cheering each time a new dish was refilled and then announcing, “Ohh, it’s already gone,” three minutes later before we had gotten to that spot in line. The pumpkin bars were even harder to get and disappear within thirty seconds each time a tray was brought out, no joke. Janelle resorted to asking for the turkey carcass and going at it at the table. A waiter brought another carcass out for her later to and by then we all wanted more turkey so badly that we joined in at stabbing at it. After dinner with the girls we sat in Carrie’s room, exchanging pictures via a thumb drive and then I ran upstairs to the open mic in the Union titled “Turkey Coma Coffee House.” So yeah, I may have missed out on turkey with the family for the second time in a row, but I still had some type of a Thanksgiving so I can’t complain. I hope everyone’s is having a good one back home.

Oh and happy 21st to Kari Winter! A little late, I know, but the ship’s internet was down the entire time we were in Japan.

So yeah, I was just in Japan!! My blogs are getting harder and harder to write because I have so much to say and not enough patience to get it all out, and I have finals on my mind so yeah. Either way….

So Sunday was my first day in Japan. It came so quickly that, as I walked around the city of Himeij that day, my mind was having trouble registering the fact that I was indeed in Japan, the country I have been studying for the last semester.
Carrie, Erin, Sarah (this girl who did the Merida trip in Venezuela with me) and I were off the ship by 12:30 but had to wait in line for money exchange for an hour because other SASers had beat us to the line in the port terminal. We took the train into downtown Kobe and from there took a train to Himeiji, a nearby city with the most famous/beautiful castle in Japan. While on the train to Himeiji two American boys boarded the same car as us. One was super cute, to the point that I made the girls find time to turn around and check him out because his eyes were so great. As the train neared our destination I overheard them talking about the castle as they stood up to get off. Carrie suggested to me we jump on with them in our journey. “Hey are you guys headed to the castle?” I asked. And so the rest of our day was spent with the two boys: Ed and Sarge.
Ed, the cute one, was half Japanese and moved to Japan two years ago to teach English to children. He told us about how his mother moved to the U.S. thirty years ago and was cut off from her Japanese family. She hasn’t seen them since. Sarge’s story was that he moved to Japan two months ago for work. He and Ed know each other from college.
Since Ed had been to the castle many times before he led the way telling us to feel free to stop and take pictures whenever. He was just really nice and really cute and I loved that we hung out with the two of them although I didn’t get too much of a chance to talk to Sarge. The boys asked if we had plans for the night but unfortunately we kind of did. I would have gladly changed them but I don’t think the girls felt the same way. So after our visit to the castle and hanging around outside for a bit, we took pictures together and went our separate ways.
After our visit to the castle we walked around the mall area of Himeiji, looking for somewhere to eat dinner. Oh and can I just say that in Himeiji, and throughout Japan I assume, there are malls that look like streets. Like, you walk down the street and turn onto another street and it’s an extremely long covered stretch with hundreds of stores. In Himeiji there were so many streets like this, all in the same area. It was so cool.
We finally found some random place to eat and settled on it because as I put it, “they have food.” A bowl of udon, wheat noodles, later and we were headed to the train.
The four of us then took the train back to Kobe, got back on the ship to quickly clean up, and left once again, this time to find saki. We were supposed to meet up with some other girls but they bailed on us, meaning that yes, we could have hung out with the boys, but whatever…I’m over it. Some guys were handing out flyers for cheap beer outside of the port terminal so we set out to find this bar called “Second Chance.” After getting lost numerous times we finally found the bar, which turned out to be super small and really not that cool. We still drank though and took shots of saki. Next door to the bar was a convenience store and in Japan public drinking is allowed so we each bought a beer at the store. A beer, by the way, which came with a free toy attached to the top of the can! Two hours later, after a mandatory stop at McDonalds, we were back at the ship.



I dedicated my entire day on Monday to visiting Hiroshima. I originally had not planned to visit the sight where the United States dropped one of two atom bombs, but after learning about it in my Modern Japan class and realizing that I would probably never again have a chance to visit the city and museum within it, I reconsidered. I’m really glad I went.
To save money I did the trip through SAS and drove to Hiroshima by bus rather than take the bullet train. In turn, I spent ten hours traveling to and from Hiroshima. Everyone was on the bus by 6:00 am. There were actually two buses because so many kids were interested in going. Carrie, Janelle, Erin, and Cynthia were all on the trip with me which made the day much more enjoyable.
Miserably tired from the night before, and still nauseous from drinking beer and saki and eating McDonald’s only six hours earlier, the ride to Hiroshima was quite miserable for me. I couldn’t get comfortable and didn’t sleep the five hours there as I had planned. So yeah, the ride to Hiroshima took forever. On top of that we made multiple stops at truck stops so by the time I finally fell asleep I was woken up again.
Upon arrival in Hiroshima we visited the T-shaped bridge that was the target of the atom bomb, or the A-Bomb as the Japanese use for short. Beside it still stands one of the few buildings in the city that remained standing after the blast. A plaque showed a picture of the devastated city completely turned into ashes with the building standing alone alongside the river. Since 1945 they’ve basically put a fence as well as a park around the building and turned it into a memorial. We continued walking through the cold fall air (by the way, there were beautiful golden and red trees surrounding the entire memorial site) and passed the flame of peace, which they say will continue burning until all nuclear weapons are destroyed and no longer exist. In the park there was also a monument for the children killed by the A-bomb. On top of the monument stands a child whose wings are outstretched. It’s supposed to be Sadako, the little girl who folded over a thousand paper cranes in hopes that she would not die from the radiation-caused leukemia that eventually killed her ten years after the bomb was dropped. Around the monument were several huge clear containers full of colorful paper cranes that people from all over had folded and brought to the monument in her memory. We continued walking and saw the coffin-shaped stone that lies at the end of a long walkway. Inside it are all the names of the 240,000 victims of the A-bomb in Hiroshima.
There were a lot of us SASers and I found myself disturbed and annoyed by students who were handing off their cameras to their friends in order to have their pictures taken in front of a monument or the ruins of the building left standing. I mean, I was taking my share of pictures. But to stand in front of such a devastating and horribly sad sight and smile to show that “you were there,” just seems wrong to me. For example, after visiting the museum, I, myself, was trying to let everything I had seen sink in and full of thought and sadness, but some SASers stood outside laughing and posing for pictures. I just don’t understand how, after seeing these pictures of burned bodies, and hearing about all the people who lost their lives in the exact location we were standing, some students could be so unaffected. I don’t know, the museum just really upset me and some kids seemed to care less than others and see the site more as a tourist attraction rather than a huge cemetery.
So anyway, about the museum. There are two in Hiroshima, but the main one, the one we visited, is not a state-owned business, meaning the slant on it was significantly less than it could have been. Besides, regardless of whether or not someone thinks the bomb should have been dropped, it still happened. The museum basically explained the course of events leading up to the bombing, the situation after the bombing, and the history behind nuclear weapons.
Inside there were wrist and pocket watches frozen forever on 8:15 am. Burnt and tattered clothing off victims’ bodies were displayed. Pictures of children accompanied belongings that were found next to their dead bodies including a lunch pail and a tricycle. The original steps from a bank were displayed and the shadow of someone who had been sitting on the steps that morning, waiting for the bank to open, was burnt into the cement. A picture of victims taken three hour after the bomb was dropped was blown up and placed on a wall. A volunteer at the museum came over and explained to me how a Japanese newspaper photographer took photos of the immediate destruction but because the sites he was seeing were so gruesome and tragic he could only take a few photos. “My viewfinder became clouded with tears,” it said next to the picture following a short description of it. It was a pretty large museum with more to see than I had time for. School children filled the three levels of the museum, reading captions under pictures and then scribbling notes onto some paper. I spent a half hour watching a film about the aftermath of the August 6 and the people who, years later, were still dieing and suffering from mental and physical effects of the radiation of the bomb.
After visiting the museum we loaded back into our buses and stopped at a Japanese garden. On the way I tried desperately to truly embrace what went on here 60 years before. Underneath all the new pavement and buildings is one huge cemetery. I pictured the screaming, the crying, the horror that survivors witnessed, but couldn’t. It may have been because I was low on sleep, but either way, I was just really really sad after leaving the museum, and understandably. I started thinking about WWII in general and all the people that died in the Holocaust and then I got to thinking about the Vietnam War and the pictures I saw at the War Memorial Museum in Ho Chi Minh City. I thought about the Armenian genocide that I learned about in my human rights class and the genocide that took place in Cambodia in the 70’s, although I know very little about it. So many people have died horrible deaths just in the past century alone. There’s been so much tragedy, a lot of which I know nothing about, and in the U.S. we’re so sheltered from all of it. When I was in fifth grade I saw the Enola Gay at the Smithsonian and I don’t remember ever learning that this plane had killed hundreds of thousands of people. I don’t know, there was, and still is, a lot going through my head after visiting the museum.
So anyway, we went to this Japanese garden and were given an hour to roam. I spent it with Carrie and Erin, taking pictures of the bright red trees and their reflection in the pond. Back on the bus we began the drive home. We stopped at a truck stop for dinner and paid for our meals via a machine, pressing a button that corresponded with the meal we wished to order. Then we proceeded to the counter and handed a man the ticket. It was definitely a new process for all of us. I ate my noodles and tofu, leaving my rice balls alone because I realized tiny pieces of like baby eel or something like that laced the rice. From there I roamed the convenience store/bakery that made up the rest of the building. Vending machines lined a hall like they did every other stop we had made. Oh yeah, and before I forget, you can buy pretty much anything out of vending machines. Beer, tons of types of coffee, corn dogs, heck, even French fries…it’s amazing. And their everywhere, especially the drink ones. They rarely have any soda in them, just tea and both cold and hot coffee drinks. I walked around the building, buying random food such as banana gum and a pre-packaged icecream treat surrounded by a waffle, just to try it. Oh yeah, and gas-station stores in Japan don’t just have candy and sweets. There was octopus jerky, lots of random seafood packages, come to think of it, I don’t really know what any of it was because I can’t read Japanese. But there was a lot of food that gave me goosebumps just looking at it.
We got back to the ship around 9 pm and I retired to my room to shower and pack for the following day.


On Wednesday morning I traveled to Kyoto, via three different trains, with about twenty other SASers and a few Japanese students from Ritsumeikan University who had come to Kobe to assist in our getting to their school. We got to the university at 11:00 am and as soon as we arrived were taken to a room where we sat in assigned groups that we were in in for the rest of our stay in Kyoto. In my group there were four Japanese students: Michi, Rika, Hitomi, and Kiyono plus three other SASers: Vivian, Julie, and Adam. We sat on the floor, legs crossed, at a table low to the ground and introduced ourselves. Upon being told to by the organizer of the day, we awkwardly exchanged gifts. Rika chose my gift, complete with a Chicago baseball cap that she wore throughout our tour of Kyoto the next day. I handed each one of them a mix I had made of American music. Our group stuck together as we headed to lunch in the university’s dining center. The cafeteria-style line was full of unfamiliar food, none of which was labeled in English. So they helped as I curiously asked what each plate that looked appetizing was. While we ate, Rika took pictures of us with her pink cell phone and I took pictures of them. We were equally amused with each other. The students knew English really well and language was not a barrier at all so, in turn, we were able to have real conversation with one another, it was nice.
They took us on a tour of the campus, which was basically us walking around and admiring how beautiful the trees and set-up of the school was. Students walked to and from classes, two boys sat outside playing acoustic guitar, it was all very familiar. The big difference was in their dress. The Japanese are amazing dressers! The girls are all decked out in trendy clothes, leather boots, cute jackets…barely anyone just wears a T-shirt and jeans. And in the U.S., the boys would all be considered metrosexuals in their thought-out sexy haircuts and fashionable clothes. I was just blown away by it all because everyone dressed and looked uniquely different.
After the campus tour we headed back to our foot-high tables in the room we were in previously. Each group of about eight American and Japanese students was given three topics to discuss. Our hosts had prearranged the topics and the students had printed out sheets they had prewritten to outline the discussion. It was all so organized. Just to be involved in the day the students had to apply in the summer and write an essay explaining why they wanted to be a host for us. The second day we spent with them was planned out ahead of time by each group of Ritsumeikan students too. So anyway we discussed food culture, educational differences, and skimmed over the peace constitution topic. Michi laughed when we brought it up, explaining that he doesn’t follow politics. Because I’ve been studying Japan on the ship, it was the one thing I really wanted to talk about, but I understood his viewpoint, or lack thereof…it’s the same way in the states.
At 3:30 we went through the Peace Museum and photography exhibit that is part of the university. The museum was interesting, but very little the text was translated into English and the most I could do was look at pictures and follow the timeline of events. The photography exhibit was pretty impressive and contained pictures taken from all over the world. All the captions were written in Japanese though and I had no idea what I was actually looking at.
The 24 SASers who had regrouped for the museum visit split up again, this time into groups of eight for what the schedule we were given referred to as a “cultural experience.” One group practice calligraphy, another group was full of kids who chose to do judo. My group visited the university’s kendo club that was practicing in a large room with a wooden floor. As we were in a recreational building, in the room over students practiced judo and kids sat outside in the cold air wearing work-out clothes. Kendo is essentially a sport involving a dulled bamboo sword that each participant swings toward his opponent. Wearing armor, including a mask that resembles that of a hockey-goalie, you aim for the top of the head, stomach, wrist, and throat of the opponent, yelling out specifics words as you strike in order to get a point. It’s really pretty cool. What’s even cooler is that the eight of us, actually seven because Adam chose to go back to the ship, got to dress in the attire, practice kendo with members of the university’s club, and then compete in a match against another SASer. It was awesome. I repeatedly hit the Ritsumeikan student that I was paired up with as he stood there, letting me take free swings with my sword. He couldn’t speak English so our dialogue was limited. Vivian and I ended up battling as the rest of the SASer and Ritz students watched us. We even had a referee. Vivian I had were a good match and we each scored once against each other. Two points ends a match, but our time ran out before we reached that. After the match I took off my gloves and armor and was appalled at how bad I smelled. The robes they had dressed us in were musky and unpleasant smelling before we put them on and now we too smelled the same way. It was unsettling because I couldn’t escape the odor.
We met up with everyone else after kendo, finally dropped our bookbags off in the guest dorm-style rooms they were supplying us with for the night, and headed to a reception being held for us in one of the cafeteria’s that was normally closed for dinner. Our meal was awesome, but Rika later told me it wasn’t traditional Japanese food. It was served buffet style and everyone sat around the room at a variety of tables. Kim and I sat next to Michi who made us laugh hysterically as he told us stories about how he rode a greyhound bus from Chicago to Seattle.
When dinner ended everyone rushed outside and to a close-by karaoke bar. Curfew in the building we were staying in that night was at 10 pm and we only had two hours. Once there, everyone split into two groups and went into these rooms that had a karaoke machine and tables and chairs. For the next hour we sang as much as possible, taking turns with the Japanese students in the selection of songs. They only knew some of what we chose and we knew none of their songs aside from a Backstreet Boys song. Even though we only had an hour it was still definitely a good time.
Back at the building for the night everyone mingled in the floor lobby for quite a bit. The Rits students spent the night with us as well. Jason, an employee of Rits who was with us during our entire time at the school, sat with us and answered questions about Japan and how different aspects of it compare to the U.S. and Canada. Jason’s twenty-six, from Canada, and has been working in Japan for the last six months. He speaks fluent Japanese too. Pretty impressive. After he went to bed, I spent two hours listening to a debate between Kim and Glenn about politics and eventually retired myself.

The next morning Kiyono and Hitomi woke us up at 7:30 am, they had already been up for quite some time. We ate breakfast in the school cafeteria, which served rice, fish, miso soup, salad, French fries, and pastries for breakfast. The only eggs that were out for students to take were raw, according to Michi. Once everyone in our group was finished eating we began our tour of Kyoto.
The tour was extremely informal and consisted of the students taking us to places and telling us to “go over there” for a good picture. I didn’t mind it though. We first went to the Golden Temple, this beautiful structure built on large pond, surrounded by trees that were bright red and yellow. A path led throughout the park area and Japanese tourists filled it, clogging the traffic of people as they stopped to take pictures.
Next we went to this castle located on top of a hill. Yeah, I don’t even know what the castle is called. The view from it was amazing though. In front of the castle, down below, lie the city of Kyoto while the back half of the scenery was endless trees, many of which had changed colors with the season. Rika kept saying that she had never seen the view from the castle be so beautiful before. Between multiple bus rides and the difficulty of walking through large crowds of people, it was past noon by the time we finished visiting the two sites.
The day before I had told the students that I wanted to try sushi, at which they had exclaimed in joy, and we were short on time since Vivian had to catch the 2 pm train back to Kobe to meet someone. So Michi ran ahead of us to get in line for a table at a cheap sushi place. The rest of us walked a while, took a bus, and walked even further after that just to get to this restaurant. Later, after Michi had left to take Vivian to the train station, I found out that he had run the entire way from the castle to this restaurant downtown, without taking the bus, just to get us a table.
So anyway, this sushi place we went to was awesome. We sat in a booth as a conveyer belt full of dishes passed beside us, looping through the entire second floor of the restaurant. These plates with squid, octopus, salmon, pork, pastries, and a multitude of other type of food, kept my eyes from relaxing the entire lunch. Instead, as I ate, I just kept looking at what else I could eat next, bad for me, good for business. There was just so much to look at! And on top of that, each plate was 100 yen, less than a dollar. “What’s that? How about that?” I asked the girls over and over throughout the meal as food passed by. I did eat raw fish, and yes, I’m so proud of myself. The salmon sushi and tuna sushi I ate really wasn’t that bad, and I actually kind of enjoyed it. I’m excited to back to the states and try it there now.
As lunch ended Vivian had to leave and Michi offered to get her safely to the train station. One of the other girls had to leave to take a test and another wasn’t feeling well. Our goodbyes were actually kind of sad since we had spent so much time together in the last 24 hours. Before they left I pulled out the plastic bag full of random Chicago souvenirs I had with me. Since Japan was our last port I wanted to get rid of them. “You guys can have this stuff if you want it,” I said as I dumped out the Chicago deck of cards, American flag pens, Chicago Cubs bracelet, and other stuff. While still at the table we exchanged emails and encouraged one another to find each other on MSN messenger.
When lunch ended there were only three of us left: Julie, Rika, and I. So Rika spent the next couple hours walking in downtown Kyoto with us and showing us the Guin district of shops. Wednesday happened to be a holiday and the sidewalks were as busy as Wrigleyville right after a Cubs game lets out…that’s how I explained it to Rika who wanted to know if Chicago was as busy and crowded. We walked around for a while and then loaded onto a crowded bus headed to Kyoto Station. Once at the station we rode like seven escalators up the main hall area of the open air station to see the view. The roof of the station was full of people watching the sun set and folks sitting around outside, enjoying the weather. If only Union Station had a set up like that. Kyoto Station also had a huge Christmas tree.
Julie and I said goodbye to Rika as took the 5:30 train back to Kobe. Rika was probably my favorite of all the students I had met because she was so much like me. A junior in college, she talked about visiting a gay bar, how she doesn’t know what she wants to do after college, and was just really down-to-earth and able to answer any question I threw at her. It was sad to say goodbye to her.
When Julie and I got back to Kobe we ran into Mike (he’s an executive producer of Sea TV with me). He was on his way to get Kobe beef and wanted us to join him. To make a long story short, he finally convinced us to go with him but Julie and I ended up sitting in the stuffy, fancy restaurant for like fifteen minutes before leaving him to enjoy his meal alone. On ship time was an hour away and we still had another train ride plus a probable long line to get through security. Mike said he didn’t care and ordered a five-course meal. I never found out how late he got back. Julie was majorly stressing about getting back on time though, like Katie Wubben style, and we had to leave because she looked like she was going to have a panic attack or something.
We totally made it back before 8:00 pm and because it wasn’t even 7:30 yet I got to eat dinner too, a definite bonus.

I had such a good time in Japan. Maybe it’s because I was with students from a completely different part of the world that I could relate with. They made my time in Japan that much more amazing. I can’t believe I was just in Japan and that in a period of four days I saw Hiroshima, sang karaoke, and ate sushi: the three things I really wanted to fit in while there. Now I’m just thinking about how, in the last like ninety days, I’ve canyoned in Venezuela, hiked in Brazil, skydived in South Africa, visited a Hindu temple in India, rode a boat down the Mekong Delta, climbed the Great Wall, man I could go on forever. I’ll get more sentimental about it all as the voyage comes even closer to an end. For now though I have a little less than two weeks to do finals, pack, say goodbyes, and sort out how I feel about everything I have seen and done.